For the past few months after February 14, 2024, my understanding of emptiness has changed.

Back then, my question was:

Why do I feel empty despite having a full life?

Now, I see it differently.

At first, I realized my emptiness came from self-doubt. Even though my life felt full, constantly asking myself what I was actually doing all this for gradually made my achievements and activities feel emotionally less satisfying.

So I stopped asking that question.

Instead, I tried to simply enjoy the moment while doing those activities.

But then, emptiness resurfaced.

After I achieved a goal.

After making major plans in my personal life.

And this time, the question became:

What is the purpose of doing all these?