Today, my psychiatrist asked if I use AI when writing my blog posts.
Without knowing why, I was deeply affected and completely shut down. Although I asked a few questions afterward, I can’t remember any of them
Questions that came to my mind:
- Does he think the ideas are not coming from me?
- Before, he said that I was a good writer, does this mean he thinks I’m a fake now?
- Does using AI feel wrong or dishonest?
Part of me also felt ashamed as if I had been exposed.
I know this is not a small incident. It reflects something about my values. After thinking it through, I began to wonder whether my reaction was connected to my values.
The ideas in my blog posts do come from me.
But I feel guilty whenever I use AI because it feels dishonest.
I see myself as smart and capable, and this somehow feels inconsistent with my use of AI.
The recognition I received may also have been partly influenced by my use of AI.
Before, I used AI without really thinking about how I used it. Now, all of this has prompted me to rethink my AI usage.
Going forward, I will make sure I use AI for:
- Language Support (grammar, wording, and smooth sentences)
- Clearer Expression
- Decision-making clarification
Right now, I feel more settled and at peace with it.