A reflection on writing, values, and what feels authentic.

Today, my psychiatrist asked if I use AI when writing my blog posts.

Without knowing why, I was deeply affected and completely shut down. Although I asked a few questions afterward, I can’t remember any of them

Questions that came to my mind:

• Does he think the ideas are not coming from me?
• Before, he said that I was a good writer, does this mean he thinks I’m a fake now?
• Does using AI feel wrong or dishonest?

Part of me also felt ashamed as if I had been exposed.

I know this is not a small incident. It reflects something about my values. After thinking it through, I  began to wonder whether my reaction was connected to my values.

The ideas in my blog posts do come from me.

But I feel guilty whenever I use AI because it feels dishonest.

I see myself as smart and capable, and this somehow feels inconsistent with my use of AI.

The recognition I received may also have been partly influenced by my use of AI.

Before, I used AI without really thinking about how I used it. Now, all of this has prompted me to rethink my AI usage.

Going forward, I will make sure I use AI for:

• Language Support (grammar, wording, and smooth sentences)
• Clearer Expression
• Decision-making clarification

Right now, I feel more settled and at peace with it.